Don't touch me...please

Yet another thing I swore I would keep up with, but have failed so far.  Of course it is for me....just like my doctor/dentist appointments, regular haircuts, exercise.  Busy, busy, busy....so of course, my needs/desires are the first to go.  I joined a gym.  It opened several weeks ago, but I have yet had a chance to go.  Yes, my husband works long hours, yes there is dance class, girl scouts, softball, baseball, family parties, holidays.......I don't know....sleep.  In addition to all this, there is so much more that I want to do with my days.  Organizing my house and hanging up some pictures, curtains would be nice.  I have so many big ideas for the house, but I lack time, money, energy.  I wish I could have one of those HGTV shows come in and just redo it all.  Hell, I'll take a little public embaressment to get my house to look like the cover of Better Homes and Gardens........even if it only it will last just for a two minutes. 

It really sounds like I'm whining...doesn't it? I have  managed to do some positive things over the last couple of weeks. 

First, I realized I took a nose dive at 200mph off of my diet.  My period is MIA and hair is falling out as fast as it was a year ago.....ugh.  So I'm trying to detox again.  It's so hard with all the Easter candy laying around.  I am doing better than I was last week though.  I have probably gained 10-15lbs of weight since going on my vacation in October.  This terrifies me.  I've come too far to fall back into that vicious cycle.  I took a nice walk/jog around the block the other night.  While it kicked my butt, I felt good.

Second,  after weeks of panic attacks due to me stressing over how I would fit all the kids activities....I complete our first full weeks of practices!  Well, sort of.  Activities on Monday was cancelled because of Spring Break.  The majority of the panic attacks were before I recieved Emily's softball schedule.  I was so worried she would have practice on the opposite days as the boys.....which meant I would practically live at the field.  I considered pricing RVs so I could just live in the parking lot at the field.  I was nearly jumping for joy when I found out they were on the same days.  I love that my kids are active and want to do activities, but I dread the constant go go go.  Here is our weekly schedule...

Monday - School, 5:30 Hip Hop, 6:15 Girl Scouts
Tuesday - School
Wednesday - School, 5:30-7 Softball, 6-7 Baseball
Thursday - School
Friday - School
Saturday - 9:30 Softball, 12:30 Baseball

Add in housework, Emily's visitations with her father, doctor appointments, taking care of the dogs (wish someone would have talked me out of this), cooking dinner, etc etc....  I feel like I am spinning out of control.  Just typing that out sends my heart racing.  The good news is, I have found this more manageable than I thought it would be.


Third, David and I have completed a lot of the work that needed to be done on the backyard.  The yard was a complete disaster when we moved in last September.  The owners had cut a tree down....they took the logs away, but left all the other mess.  There was a lot of trash left from rebuilding the "deck."  I'm waiting for the very sad example of a deck to fall so we can take that away.  David was able to spread out the hump where the tree was.  Many fines, brush, trees, shrubs, etc were pulled up.  Grass seed was spread.  There is much more to do, but it's actually amazing how far we have come considering we can't even speak a sentence without being interrupted five times. 

Fourth, I am completely amazed that I have come this far in this post.  I'm also amazed that my head has not exploded yet.  Although, if one more kid hugs me, whines, asks me for something or needs me for anything else before I have the chance to type my closing sentence....that may just happen. 

In other news...  I have NO idea in which direction this blog is going.  Yes I love my kids.  Yes, I'm a SAHM.....  but there is so much more I want to write about.  So as for now, this will just be my complete mix/match of random thoughts.  Some good, some bad....some just plain scary.  One post, I may write about making homemade playdoh and spending hours with my little angels.  While others (most likely the majority) will be spend pondering the trials of motherhood....snot kisses, destroyed furniture, constant whining, soul sucking.  Life is good.  Some of the time.

I will leave you with a picture of my little soul sucking angels on Easter morning.  A basketful of goodies which we used to bribe them with for the last few months.