Monday, January 24, 2011

The most important day in 2010

Much has happened since my last post.  Let's face it, when you are a mom to this many (lost count)....unnecessary things go unattended.  The last several months have been filled with holidays, MANY doctor's appointments and most importantly........the birth of my sweet baby girl!  I am now a Mom To The Fifth Power!!!

Here is a birth story that I wrote the night Clara was born.  I posted it on my mommy message board.....so spelling and grammar went out the window.

The Birth of Clara Joy Thomas
Tuesday was suppose to be a relaxing day for me. David had told the kids the night before that they would get the house completely put together and I would clean. An induction date was set for Wednesday 12/29 at 6am...so my job on Tuesday was to rest. Well, things didn't really go as planned. I woke David up in the morning so that he could make the kids breakfast. I didn't feel well. I was still struggling from the nasty sinus/cold and had a terrible cough. Also, I felt a little sick to my stomach. I wanted to lay back down, but Brady said his eyes were hurting, so I spent some time taking care of him. He hasn't been wearing his glasses like he should since he stretched them out. While I was in Brady's room with him, I thought David was cleaning up the house. Only, Nicholas came to let me know David was asleep and he needed something. That started a day long argument. David just didn't get that I was going to have a baby the next day! Around 4:45 I told him he had to stop what he was doing and clean the van out so I could install the carseat before dark. Well, he kind of cleaned it. I gave up on arguing with him and knew sometime before the night was over, I would have to do a quick clean on my own. Around 5:00, David started making the kids dinner. After that, we were going to give them baths and get their bags together to go to my sister's house. The kids were so excited that they were going to get the chance to spend the next few nights with their cousins. The kids sat down to eat around 5:30. I peeled myself off the couch to make a visit to the potty. The last week or so, Clara obviously dropped low and was putting pressure on my bladder. However, it was strange because it was like she was preventing anything from coming out. So, I had to pee more often, but it was a lot less each time. I managed to pee a little. When I stood up, I coughed and had a small, warm gush. Usually I would think, "Oh crap..I peed myself again." However, for some reason this was different. I changed my pad and went to the kitchen to make a grilled cheese sandwich. I told David that I think my water may have broke. As I was at the sink washing the pan, I felt another gush. It wasn't a large gush, but there was no reason for me to pee myself this time (no cough/pressure). On the way back to the bathroom to check myself, I felt a few more small gushes. My pad was soaked with clear fluid that had a sort of semen smell to it (lovely). David was standing there and saw all the fluid. He started panicking. I told him to chill out and reminded him that the baby was not going to fall out of me. My brother in-law wasn't suppose to show up for another two hours to pick up the kids. We decided that my mother would pick me up and take me to the hospital, and David would finish getting the kids ready and wait for BIL. I was quickly getting myself together, but not rushing. As I gathered last minute stuff for my bag, David was flipping out trying to get me out the door. As he was losing his mind, I took a shower. I knew it would be awhile before I could shower. When my mother showed up, the kids were running up down the hall (Evan was butt naked for his bath) and David was hyperventilating on the couch. David later told me that Pongo stood at the door crying for about ten minutes after I left. He knew something was happening. The contractions had been going steady since my water broke. During the car ride, my mother started to time them....they were easily three minutes apart with a few that were closer to two minutes. Mom is usually level headed, but started to get nervous...lol. Once at the hospital, I signed some forms and was ushered into triage for normal stuff (pee sample, pelvic check). I found out that not one of my doctors or midwife was working. The practice I go to has three OBs and one midwife...and seriously not one was working! Fortunately, I did meet the fill in doctor during a NST...she was friendly. When the doctor went to check to see if my water did indeed break, the nurse laughed and said, "well, I guess there is no question about it." The bed was soaked and I was practically swimming in it. At this point, David, my mom and MIL were all there. I was admitted and walked to my room...108. As discussed before, I needed continuous monitoring since this was a VBAC. Monitors were put on. Clara's heart rate was very strong and reactive to the contractions. 160s during rest and 170s during contractions. An IV was started and fluids and antibiotics were given for the GBS. The contractions continued to intensify. The initial cervical check showed I was still a 3...which is what I was after the membrane sweep on Monday....my OB stretched me. Once the nurse had me settled, I HAD to get out of bed. My butt/back were hurting and it took the edge off to move around and sway. I couldn't go far, as I had the IV and monitors, but I only really needed room to sway back and forth. Honestly, I sort of went into my own little land and lost track of time. At one point, I kept hearing my MIL tell David to spot me because she was worried I was going to fall over. My mom and MIL kept making comments about how tired I must be and how worried they were that I was going to fall over. This seemed silly to me, as I was just standing for a little bit swaying. Come to find out, I had been standing there swaying for SIX hours straight! The contractions were so intense and literally one right on top of the each other. I barely had time to recover and another was on the way. I could not find one position or anything to escape or cope with the pain. I felt like I was trying to claw my way out of a box, but there was no escaping. I was howling through contractions and I remember violently shaking the bed railing and IV pole at one point. I do remember asking for someone to kill me and put me out of my misery...lol. Rocking, swaying, walking, squatting, laying, kneeling, hands/knees.....NOTHING helped. I could not recover from the contractions and it seriously felt like someone was trying to tear my spinal cord out of my butt....literally...it felt like that. I told David that I wanted the epidural. He said, "Okay hon..the nurse will be in any minute." I said, "NO....go get her NOW!!!!" David ran out the door. The nurse came in and told me I needed to finish the one bag of IV fluid before they could give me the epidural. I nearly broke down, but it didn't seem like too much to go. I asked her how long she thinks that will take. 45 minutes. "Are you freaking $hItting me?!?!" Yeah, it was getting deep at this point. Towards the end of the bag, I told David to make sure she had the anesthesiologist waiting by my door. He did just that...lol. The bag was done, IV started to beep. "Ugh...where the hell is she?!" David went to get her. She came in and said, "Okay, I will go call the anesthesiologist...should be about 15 minutes." What!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Seriously...this is getting ridiculous. Do they want me to turn into a werewolf and begin devouring all the nurses?? Finally, the anesthesiologist enters the room and started his routine of unpacking the goods. Holy crap, I seriously contemplated grabbing the needle off his tray and shoving it in my back by myself. Before the epidural, the doctor wanted to check my cervix. If I was close to full, there was no point of the epidural. I was at 6cm. The anesthesiologist turned to me and started telling me the risks and all the blah blah blah legality crap. David said I kept waving my hands at him, rolling my eyes and telling him to hurry up.....LOL! I kind of remember. I do remember waving my hands and telling him to just give me the darn paper to sign. I scribbled an N and a line and told him to hurry........please (hey after all he is sticking a large needle in my back). The contractions were slamming me hard...one right on top of another. MAYBE 30 second break in between. Even during that break, I still felt pain, but not the intense contraction. I told him to be ready, that I would finish the contraction and he could quickly get it done. The nurse warned me that I was going to still have several contractions before it was over, but I really needed to sit still. I tried....I tried SO hard to sit still. I had about five contractions before he was even able to prep me. The table I was bent over on kept shifting. I was in so much pain, I kept leaning towards David. Oh yeah...I sort of bit David. Okay, I really bit David. During a contraction, I bit his knuckle. When I realized what I had done, I apologized and bit my arm instead. The nurse pulled her hands away....lol. Eventually, he got the epidural in and soon I felt relief. I looked around the room and no one seemed nearly as happy as me. I then realized they were either irritated or scared. I quickly began apologizing to everyone. I swore up and down I really was not that much of a B and that I was truly grateful for their help. The anesthesiologist rubbed my shoulders and told me it was okay and assured me that I did just fine. The nurse told me it was fine and she was glad I just didn't bite her. I knew after the epidural and now that I was laying in bed, that labor would most likely stall. I was completely okay with this. I was already more than half way there.....which was my personal goal. I wanted to be half way or more than half way before I got the epidural. I needed rest and sleep so that I had the energy to push Clara out. I felt the contractions, but was finally able to rest. There were a few that were so strong that they still hurt. I kept thinking that if I could feel them through the epidural, how must they really feel?! Everyone decided to take a nap. I was in and out of sleep. Some of the contractions were strong enough that the pressure did wake me up. I usually nodded off once it passed. The doctor checked me again at some point and I was a 7. She told me she had to go to the OR for a c-section and would most likely be back in time for me to push. The nurse told me to try to sleep, but if I felt any pressure to call her right away. I told her I was so numb that I wasn't sure I would be able to tell if it was really pressure. She assured me I would know and left. I continued to sleep on and off. Everyone was sound asleep when I started feeling some pressure to push. I wasn't really sure if that was it though. I stayed awake and paid attention to it to see if it really was push pressure. Warning, TMI ahead...... Soon I felt my butt area spread and I realized yeah...I'm about to have a baby. I couldn't reach my call bell, so I woke my mother up. Soon MIL was up too. Mom couldn't find it in the dark without her glasses....lol. The doctor came in and I was a 10! Time to have a baby!! David was asleep on the floor, so his mother woke him up. The nurse was busy prepping the room for delivery and the doctor was getting cleaned up and making sure she had all her supplies. David said, "I have to poop...I'll be right back." He left the room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I looked at my mom and MIL and said, "Did that seriously just happen?!" We were all in complete shock that he left! He came back a few minutes later and quickly received Hell from everyone in the room...lol He told me he didn't realize I meant it was time NOW. Everyone got into position...MIL with camera behind me, Mom held my completely floppy right leg (poor Mom) and David held my left. He never held my legs because of a near fainting accident during one of the prior births. I told him it would be okay and that if he needed the nurse to take over, she would. The doctor was still prepping while we were standing there. David said, "Uhhhh......something is happening!!!" The nurse checked and sure enough, every time I coughed, Clara was coming out! She was literally crowning from me coughing. Remember that nasty cough I posted about?? The doctor looked over and sort of panicked. She told me to TRY not to cough. The bed was quickly broken down. During one contraction, I pushed Clara out. 5:07am. She pooped on the way out, but thankfully not before her head was delivered. Her cry was nice and strong. She was laid on top of me. It was so beautiful and amazing!!!! Then she pooped on me...lol!! The nurse and I wiped her off a bit. David cut her cord. My aunt was working the postpartum wing, but she came over to help out. My Aunt Grace carried Clara to the warmer to clean her up and do all that fun stuff. Clara pooped the entire way to the warmer. She continue to poop on my aunt and then pooped all over the floor as they carried her to the scale. She went SO much that by the time she was finished, she was out of meconium and had her first transitional bowel movement on the warmer bed. LOL! Her APGAR was 8 and 9! She weighed 8lbs 13oz and measured 22 inches long. She looks like her daddy. I had one very tiny tear that only required a stitch. Everyone was amazed how quickly she came out and mostly from me coughing. The doctor congratulated me as she delivered the placenta and said I officially had a successful VBAC. It was quiet, calm, intimate, beautiful....and everything I could have ever wished for!

Soon after delivery, we noticed Clara grunting and her nostrils were flaring. She also had a slight fever. The grunting and flaring nostrils were signs that she was having problems breathing. The fever could have been from me....I had a fever during the entire labor/delivery. I was 102 towards the end...so I could have made her hot. They wanted to make sure though. After everyone got to hold her, they took her to the nursery to be checked out and monitored. The grunting and flaring nostrils quickly subsided and it was determined that she had problems transitioning since it was such a quick delivery. She didn't spend a lot of time in the birth canal and did manage to suck in some fluid when she was delivered. The temp quickly came down. However, they did some blood work and there were some problems. Her white blood count was elevated. There were two times yesterday that her temp dropped and she had to be placed on the warmer. She was having a lot of problems keeping it regular by herself. So, as a precaution (since I'm GBS+), they started the antibiotics. Even after a round of that, she still had temp issues. They gave her one more try to see if she could keep her temp up by herself. If not, they would have sent her to NICU for IV treatment. Fortunately, she has been able to control it alone and we have avoided NICU. She doesn't have jaundice. ALL of my other kids had jaundice and some were bad enough for light therapy. So this is wonderful. She's eating better than any of them ever did and pooping/peeing like a champ. I think that a lot of that is because I let her come naturally. She came when SHE was ready and because of that....she was able to do all those things easily on her own. The big kids came to meet Clara today. They are all in love. I thought Evan would be the most excited, but it really hit him today. He was a little hesitant. Not that he doen't like her. I think it was just a huge shock when he walked in today and saw a baby. Brady has been very homesick and wanted to go home today. I promised him tomorrow. He was absolutely amazing with Clara. He even helped me change her diaper and feed her. Nicholas can not wait to put Clara in her swing. He was making funny faces trying to make her laugh today. He does this with his baby cousin and thinks it's great. I had to explain to him that it would be a little bit before that would work. Emily is over the moon. She looked like a little mommy holding Clara today. As for me.....I am completely in love with my little girl. Not only that, but I have fallen in love with my other children all over again. I have been blessed beyond measure!!!

Just born and still attached.

Mommy, Daddy and Clara

On the warmer bed...notice the poo?

Settling down before sending her off to the nursery for observation

The big kids meeting Clara for the first time.

All of my kids!


Discharge Day!

Friday, October 22, 2010

It's the most wonderful time of the year...............

It's that time of the year again!!!  Birthdays, Halloween, more Birthdays, Thanksgiving and Christmas shopping.  The time of year where David and I go nuts trying to figure out how to make money appear out of thin air to cover not only our normal bills, but our holiday bills.  Ugh!  Every year, very soon after Christmas is over, we look at each other in complete shock that we actually did it!  This year is no different.  Halloween costumes alone cost a lot when you are buying for four kids.  Regardless if I were to make them or purchase some cheesy costume, it's about the same....$30-$40 per child (easily).  Emily decided on Wednesday Addams, which thanks to my mom is coming very cheap.  She found an old witch dress that can easily be converted to a Wednesday dress.  Also, she gave me a pair of witchy shoes.  Nicholas asked to be Jack Sparrow.  I thought about piecing this one together, but soon realized how intricate the costume was.  So, I settled on one of those cheesy store bought deals...$23 off of Ebay!  Brady was not swaying from his idea of being Harry Potter.  This costume had to be pieced together.  As they sell EVERY single accessory separate.  I found the robe in a party store for $20.  The glasses and wand was a deal for $13 from Ebay....most were $10 each.  I bought a white button down shirt (with tie included) from Walmart for $10.  Originally I was going to let him go without the tie.  I refused to spend the $20 they wanted for the Harry Potter tie at the party store.  Last minute, I decided I could paint it....worked out well.  He used his "prince shoes" from last year to complete the costume.  His costume was definitely the most expensive, $43!!!  However, Evan made up for Brady's expensive costume.  He originally wanted to be Indiana Jones, but I thought he is only three and he will have the rest of his big boy life to be some dorky character...right?  I convinced him that the old scarecrow costume I made Brady years ago was perfect for him!!!  Cha-ching.....FREE!

So Saturday we went to the annual Halloween celebration at Muddy Run campground.  We ended up getting there before anyone else and way before the festivities were about to begin.  We hung out with my friend at her campsite, had lunch and let the boys play on the playground.  Emily was with her father.  When the time came, we took them to the nature center.  There were tons of craft tables set up, and a place to decorate a pumpkin.  All free!  I love this festival!






After crafts, the kids got changed into their costumes.  Well, I drug my boys out to our van one at a time to change them.  My goodness, this is quite a feat for a 31 week pregnant woman. Eventually, they were all dressed to perfection and their faces were decorated with the appropriate makeup.  

Here is our group (minus our three oldest kids)...
We always have a few kids that walk away from the costume contest as winners.  And a few that have hurt feelings that need some mending.  This years winners were Nicholas (Jack Sparrow), Evan (the little scarecrow), Kayla (the tree), and Dustin (the scary scarecrow).  

Brady was confused at first.  He was sure he would win.  I explained to him that he won this contest two years before, when his brothers did not win.  It was their turn.  Plus, they shared their winning goodies with him.

The cutest Harry Potter.......EVER!!


Later, we had dinner at my friend's campsite.  The kids had fun playing with their cousins, roasting marshmallows.  We re-dressed them (yay) in their costumes just as the sun was setting.  Then it was time for trick or treating around the campground! 


So once again, we figured out how to make Halloween happen.  As for the other holidays.....I'm sure we will figure it out! ;)

31 week prenatal appointment

Yesterday, I had my 31 week appointment with my midwife.  Everything is going well with Miss Clara.  Blood pressure was fine.  I had lost a few pounds a couple appointments ago, and maybe only gained about a pound back....still doing great with the weight.  My belly was measuring about 33 weeks, but she is not worried.  She said that with every baby I have, they tend to leave a little behind.  Thanks kids!!  I did pass my 3 hour glucose test, but I'm still probably borderline diabetic.  So we are prepared to have a larger baby.  Honestly, I will be surprised if she is much bigger than her two youngest brothers.  Earlier in the pregnancy, she mentioned that she would send me for fetal assessments towards the later half of my pregnancy.  So I was not surprised when she brought up that I would be starting that next week.  I was surprised when she told me I were to go for NSTs (non-stress test) twice a week until Clara was here.  Right away, I had no clue how I would manage.  Kids can not come in the room for these tests.  I don't have a babysitter and David can't stay awake for anything to watch the kids.  I have so much coming up....speech therapy (Evan), more OB appointments, field trips, parent/teacher conferences, and now this?!?!  Of course I will make it happen.  It's just daunting.

I just can not wait to have my little girl safe in my arms.  Just two months (maybe less) to go!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Hooray for Pre-K!

Brady's teacher threw a little celebration last week. It was mostly to show us parents how far our little ones have come in a month of pre-k. Brady showed me his favorite center.....dramatic play (go figure). I'm telling you, this kid is going to be an actor! I could tell he loved having me without his siblings for an hour.  They read a book, "Hooray for me." I fought back tears. Then I hide my tears as they sang, "A World is a Rainbow." Yes....very hormonal right now.







How handsome is he?!  Brady is one of the most unusual little guys, but I am so in love with him!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

An entire summer....

And not one post?  Seriously??  How does time slip away so easily?!  It seemed like school just ended, only to begin a week later.

My kiddos are doing great.  Summer was hot with many record breaking days.  We spent a good majority inside hiding from the hellish temperatures.  On August 30th, Emily started 4th grade and Nicholas started full day kindergarten!  He is riding the bus and all....yes, I cried.
 
Enjoying a snack in the cafeteria.


The first day was only a two hour (parent involved) orientation for Nicholas, so he didn't ride the bus.  Here was the next full day of school for him....

A few days later, I had to drop my Pre-kindergartener off for his first day of school!  Geez...will the tears ever stop?!  Brady started his first year of school on September 1st.  We had a one hour (also parent involved) orientation during that first day.  During the orientation, he had to pee.  The bathroom in the classroom was right next to where us parents were sitting.  Brady didn't shut the door all the way, and well, he is not very modest.  :P  While he was using the bathroom, the teacher continued telling the children about all the fun centers and activities they have planned.  Brady (still peeing) yelled out, "I love dress up!!!"  Everyone got quite a chuckle from that.  :)





In other news......

On August 2nd, we had our big ultrasound to see how our baby was developing.  I had nightmares for several days before that kept me up in tears.  The most notable one involved the baby missing a brain.  I know it sounds ridiculous, but not only is this possible, but it has happened to a friend of mine.  :(   I was very relieved once the tech put the little wand on my belly....there was a brain!!!  The baby was in the strangest position, with the legs straight up in front of the face.  We could not get a good shot of the heart, but I was due back in two weeks for a full echocardiogram...so no biggie.  What was a biggie (at least to me) is that due to this odd position, we could not identify the gender!  I nearly cried, but the tech told me to get up and do jumping jacks, pee...whatever.  I did as instructed, but baby would not budge.  At this point, I thought I would have to wait and try again in a few weeks during the echo ultrasound.  I was surprised when the tech told me to go run up and down the halls of the hospital for 15 minutes.  No tech has ever been so patient!  Sure enough it worked and baby moved it's little legs enough for us to get a good view.
  We are having a little GIRL!!  
I had girl feelings the entire time, but wasn't sure if that was because I knew how bad everyone else wanted me to have a girl??  The important thing is that she is healthy and not showing any abnormalities!  Later that evening, we had dinner with our families to reveal the gender of our baby girl.  Our mother's had to pop balloons (with their butts) to reveal what their next grandbaby would be.  I had lied to my kids earlier in the day and told them they were having another little brother.  I knew one of them would blab before the actual reveal took place.  Sure enough, Nicholas blabbed..lol.  So Emily thought she was having another little brother, which she took SO well and I was so happy for how she handled that news.  However, when the reveal happened, she was just as surprised as everyone else.  She cried later and told me she was so happy to finally have a little sister.  
My mother in-law and mom revealing the gender.

Another picture of our baby girl during her echocardiogram.
 We have decided her name will be Clara Joy Thomas.  I have done a little bit of clothes shopping for her...how could I resist?!  Other than a few newborn sleepers and onesies, she should be fine.  All of us are so excited to meet the newest and final member of our family.  Yes, she will be the last unless a miracle were to occur and God places another baby inside of me after a vasectomy and tubal ligation.  

 Here is a video of my mother and mother in-law doing the gender reveal.  It's loud (as is my house most of the time).  I sound bossy..haha
 

Sunday, June 13, 2010

All good things must come to an end......thank goodness!

Well, things are finally coming to a temporary end around here.  Softball has ended for the year...Emily received her trophy yesterday afternoon.  The boys had their last baseball game yesterday, and also received a trophy.  Nicholas landed the game ball.  Which he has been dying to get since Brady got the game ball a month ago.  Nicholas and Brady also brought down the house during their dance recital.  They are in an all boy's hip hop group.  The audience went crazy for our boys.  I stood in the back of the auditorium while they performed (trying to get decent video.....no thanks to the old man that couldn't make his mind up if he wanted in or out of the auditorium).  I was SO proud of my boys and all the others on the stage.  Many of them faced fears of performing in front of others.  Brady, despite his insecurities threw all he had into his moves.  He thinks that he is a bad dancer.  Hmmm...wonder if it has anything to do with his older (and cocky) brother making comments?!  Ugh...I had a long talk with him last night and assured him that he was just as good as a dancer.  Brady tries harder and almost every activity he is in.  He may not be "the best,"  but the fact that he tries as hard makes up for the lack of natural ability.  So yes Nicholas, this may all come easy to you, but there is something to be said about hardwork.  I have many pictures and a video to upload, but Photobucket is currently not working for me. 

Just a few weeks ago, we went through our first "chain-reaction" illness.  Emily came home with a headache and fever.  Later is developed into a sore throat and cough.  She stayed home from school for a day and missed a few softball games.  However, it cleared up pretty quickly.  Next was Brady's turn.  It was pretty much the same pattern as Emily's.  Although, his happened on a weekend.  A weekend when my mother in-law volunteered to take the kids to give me a break.  Needless to say, it wasn't much of a break.  You would think with just having one it would still be fairly easy.  Which, it was considering if I had the others, I'd have to take care of a sick kid and them.  Brady made up for it though.  He was pretty much lost without his brothers and drove me nuts.  Once the motrin kicked in, he was bouncing off the walls.  By the way, I was also sick with fever and headache at this time.  All I wanted to do was lay across the couch......but I had to entertain Mr. Ants in the Pants!  A week had gone by, and I thought Nicholas and Evan escaped this little virus.  Not a chance!  Nicholas soon had the fever, sore throat and headache.  I kept him out of school a day, but the next day he acted well enough to return (the fever was gone).  When I picked him up that day, he looked awful!  I felt bad.  For some reason, he could not shake this fever.  During this time, Evan developed the same symptoms.  This time around, they got a nasty cough.  One that is so unique, I knew right away.  Oh crap.......croup!!  We spent that first night in the bathroom with the steam from the shower.  My boys were miserable.  I don't play around with croup.  Last year, Brady had it several times, but the one time he had stridor SO bad that I had to rush him to the ER.  His lips were turning blue...he couldn't breathe.  I took them to the doctor the following day and they were prescribed oral steroids.  I am happy to say they are completely recovered!  :)

So, this school year has gone out with a bang.  It has been seriously busy.  I absolutely loved watching my children grow and develop throughout this school year and months of activities.  Emily is a full blown tween.  I look at her sometimes and can barely remember my little two year old with ringlets in her hair.  Nicholas has grown so much with school.  Considering how scared I was to send him to school (with his unique traits), I couldn't be happier.  He had amazing teachers that appreciated him and all his uniqueness.  Brady is beginning to understand that he is his own person.  He continues to compare himself to others, but I will continue to praise his individual abilities.  He is a beautiful boy with a heart of gold.  Evan....well, my toddler is now a big kid.  He turned three just a week ago.  He is every part a big boy, but his speech.  Which is something we will conquer this year.  They drive me crazy, but I can't imagine my life without them.  

Friday, May 21, 2010

My thoughts exactly!

"The Bible calls debt a curse and children a blessing.  But in our culture we apply for a curse and reject blessings.  Something is wrong with this picture."

 -Dough Phillips